i miss who i was
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Интро] Yeah… It’s quiet now Too quiet for something that used to hurt this loud You used to talk until I broke down crying I said “stop”, but you kept going, like you liked it And now you say you never meant to hurt me Funny how you always say that right after you do You always hear me, but you never listen Nod your head like something’s gonna be different But every promise sounds the same at this point Just another version of what you didn’t do You’re a good person, I won’t lie Just not the one I needed in my life And maybe that’s the hardest part to face You’re not the worst — just wrong in every way 🔥 I don’t even miss you, I just miss who I was Before every conversation turned into us Before I measured every word I’d say Just to keep you from falling apart in my face You say you need me, but that’s not love That’s you drowning and calling it us And I kept letting you pull me deep Now I’m too tired to even sink It’s been two weeks, I haven’t seen you You ask to meet, I say “I’m busy” — it’s easier ‘Cause I already know how it would go You’d start talking ‘bout how you can’t be alone You say you’re lost, you say you need me But every time you do, you drain me completely I leave those talks feeling less like myself Like I exist just to fix someone else You think this distance is me being cold But it’s the only way I don’t fold If I let you close, I lose my ground And I’m done being the one who drowns 🔥 I don’t even miss you, I just miss who I was Before every conversation turned into us Before I carried everything you feel Like your pain was something I had to heal You say you need me, but that’s not love That’s you breaking and calling it us And I kept letting you pull me deep Now I’m too tired to even sink Maybe you’ll find someone who can stay Through every storm you bring their way But I’m not built to disappear Just to keep somebody here 🔥 I don’t even hate you, I just see it clear Loving you just cost me too much of me this year And I know you’ll say you’ll change again But I’ve heard that line too many times back then You say you need me — I finally see That’s never what love was supposed to be So I’m walking out, not making a scene Just choosing the version of me I can keep